Pyro-Patrick-Fang

2009-08-09T03:00:00.001+08:00

2009-06-27T01:46:00.006+08:00

Current Status : DEAD .

WHY ?

cause ......

WORK
WORK
WORK
and

W-O-R-K

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seriously man , I can't wait to go back to school .

& TO WHOEVER IT MAY CONCERN :

STOP putting in the same dream in my head , it's driving me nuts !

5 straight day of the same damn dream ?

seriously ,

Fucking GAY .

give me an answer or stop this whole shit .

2009-06-05T03:00:00.001+08:00

tune in to you ..

There isn't much stuff happening .

Just forgot about some stuff that I need to post up LOL !

It's nothing big at all .

Just wanna show case the "master piece" of HW GEGE ...

Title will be "minfang's wound" ... LOL !

Orange Mushroom .

Heart shapes .

Pretty artistic ... =X

LOL .

~~WTH AM I DOING ?!?!~~

I've No Idea .

ChinChin is going to go NS really soon man .

Gonna miss the times we crap like there's no tomorrow .

Do take care yahs , we all gonna miss you ~

CHINGAY POWER LOL !

Sometimes it seems like I'm like a meanie .

Making others to wait for me , to do things I say , Demanding I suppose .

There's also things like sudden "ignored" attitude but please lahs ok ,

I'm just trying have some "private" time with myself .

YES , ONLY MYSELF & MY SOUL .

don't like it I also can't change .

It's very tiring sometimes to face some stuff .

To be like "force" to say I am busy .

& I simply hate people asking me lots of questions .

It makes my patience level rises for no reason .

I need a lot of time to myself man .

My brain needs a "re-renovation" .

hmmms .

one last thing ...

SCHOOL WILL BE STARTING SOON

RANDOM DIE .

(no more "grome" dreams please , let me sleep in PEACE .)

-OFF-

`&iwishitwontbeanotherlie---`

2009-06-03T12:12:00.002+08:00

Old times .

Even though I misses the old times , it's never gonna come back .

I know I have to move on but it's simple to say then to do it .

Whatever , time will explain everything .

Things changes really fast and it's hard to catch up .

People come and go just way too fast , I hate it .

Lesser and lesser time to really react to the changes , really tirinig .

But all these serves a purpose to life so all I can do is to adapt to it .

It took one long night for me to think about many things .

Some people , some issues and some nonsenses as well .

But everything ends up with a nice sleep and it'll always be .

" I'll forgive but will never forget "

so we shall see who has the last laugh .

so now, let's talk about something happy ~

FOOD BLOOPS !

It was said that really tasty food makes one happy again .

It's true okays !

My wonder weekends was happy again because of NASI LEMAK !

It's a shop from TANJONG KATONG .

LOOK-Y LOOK-Y LOOK !

I only ordered what I wanted but there's a lot more to choose from !

Thw RICE is so just nice can ! WIN *

The OTAH is freaking NICE can ! WIN **

LADY'S FINGER for those who eat , I can tell you it's really tasty ! WIN ***

The CHICKEN WING is fried till like so crispy can ! WIN ****

WIN DIE OKAYS ! IT'S ON LOSTA TV SHOWS ABOUT FOOD BEFORE !

Please msn me or whatever if you are really interested !

If you don't try , you really DUMB BIG TIMES .

I give this NASI LEMAK 5 BLOOPS !

can't wait to eat again lahhhhhhhs ~ !

- OFF -

- SHHH --- `

2009-05-26T15:00:00.007+08:00

OMG ! CUTE DIE MUSHROOM ! ❤

He's/She's trying berry hard to squeeze the 'PEACE' sign LOL !

Well .. it's been a fews days since I update again .

So it shall be my turn to SQUEEZE these fews days' events in this post LOL .

22 MAY 2009 .

I went to Game Fest with ChinChin .

We were late for the 1st redemption for the Pink Bean item LOL !

So we go have KFC in Marina Square since there's time .

Around 1.30 pm we went back to wait and there's a God dammit uncle really pissed us off .

I hate that uncle , go to HELL LOL . == "

I tried to snap a picture of the irritating uncle but sadly ,

he moves really fast , GAY BIG TIMES . == "

There's also some ff-ing gay kid , who already got

the pink bean weapon from buying the ppc that is pissing me off too .

Why is he being called "ff-ing gay kid?"

BECAUSE he was taking his freaking gay lappy and

showing off around us who is lining up for redemption .

Really feel like pushing him and let his gay lappy

drop to the 1st floor ~

- Evil Laughs -

Really GAY BIG TIMES CAN !

Anw after we both redeem the pink bean hat ,

We went back to Marina Square and went 'doll catching' LOL !

Thanks ChinChin for his patience and $$ for the 'big nose-hole' CHICKEN !

SO CUTEEEE xD

Here the preview of the 'big nose-hole' CHICKEN !

LOL CUTE RIGHT ?

(ooo , half my HEARTITUBIE is there too LOL !)

-wahahahahahaha-

Anw , I still haven't really think of an official name for it .

hahaha !

Shall I call it ChinGAY ? <- HAHAHA !

- Cough -

Stop the crap okays .

Then after the "ChinGAY" ( LOL! ) catching ,

we went to watch ....

NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2 : BATTLE OF THE SMITHSONIAN

But before we went in , we saw a picture and is kinda cool LOL !

So now it kinda confirm that "BOBBY" ( or short for BOB ) are dogs .

Sorry , I just can't help it .

LOL ~ *

So after the movie , we went home .

THE END LOL .

23 MAY 2009 .

Early in da morning , I am talking to my mum about the

mushroom trying to squeeze the 'peace' sign yesterday and she claims that she can do it .

So I took out the Mickey Mouse gloves and had her demo for me to see LOL ~ !

SCISSORS !

PAPER !

STONE !

WHAT IS THAT ?

Mummy say it's ....

BANG BANG !

LOL !

HAHA MUMMY IS SO CUTE ❤ !

So after the morning demo of my mummy ,

I went to meet up with KEE to go Game fest again for the second redemption .

As it's a SATURDAY , means kids have no school DAMN !

So we went early and reach there around 10 ++ AM .

True enough there's lots of people ! All different age groups !

From baby to senior citizens .

COOL .

At first we were lining up at the redemption queue for the 2nd redemption

when one of the workers there said that as long as you line up for the purchase ,

you can redeem your items straight after your purchase .

So it's SO WIN FOR KEE MAN !

WHY ?

BECAUSE HE BOUGHT THE

SGD 60 ++ PPC BAG & AUDI PIG !

SUPER WIN LOL !

And that's how I got a full set of Pink Bean for my wizzers darling !

THANKS KEE LOTS !

- YAYNESS --- `

I took another picture of the mushroom !

Beauty and the beast ? LOL !

If so , I will prefer to have the beast ! LOL !

The model so beautiful , jealous uhs ! LOL !

After the purchase and redemption , we went to have out lunch .

After lunch we headed to Tanah Merah , where my cousin lives .

I'll be meeting my mummy and lil' sister there so KEE and I separates

from there and off to my cousin house I go .

Had a wonder wonder dinner of chilli vegtables cooked by my aunty !

YUMMY YUMMY !

After the dinner , we took a rest and decides to talk a walk in the park .

When we reach there , I can't help myself but to run to the swing and have fun !

It's been donkey years since I sit on a swing ! SO NICE !

After sitting on swing , my lil' sister told me her NAFA test is coming .

Dumb , I decides to practice running with my ll' sis .

I was wearing slippers that time and don't bother so runnig we go .

Then bloody hell , I was gonna win my lil' sis when the slippers got stuck or what ,

WOOSH ~

I had a nasty fall ! AHHHHHHH ~ !

@ # $ % ^ & *

Due to my fall , we all quickly go back to my cousin's house to

have the wounds cleaned up .

So here's the bloody injured knee ...

- CENSORED : GORE IMAGES -

Opps , too bad , I can't show .

So here the after "treatment" knee ...

Freaking pain ...

So straight that night , Mummy , lil' sis and I went home .

So I'm home the whole sunday , can't go to the last day of Game Fest .

KEE drop by to pass me the redemption coupon and off he go .

He kinda feel sad cause of my injuries but man , It's fine alright ?

Boring Sunday went really fast ... haha .

25 MAY 2009 .

Typical day : BORING !

But evening time isn't that anymore ...

Took a picute from my balcony ~

Isn't that magical looking ?

Really nice ~

ChinChin came to visit me around 10 pm .

Came to see how "retard" I've become LOL .

He bought MOO ice-cream and that's a happy thing !

We crap a lot till we're both sleepy so home he go , bed I go .

Oh yeah ...

Thanks those who send their regards to me ~

I'll get well soon !

So I'll be bascially staying at home for a few weeks I suppose ...

I'll end here .

- No Boundaries --- `

2009-05-20T04:05:00.009+08:00

I GIVE UP .

You wanna play stranger with me , I will play with you .

Your 10 reasons does not mean anything at all , I am so suprised .

All your words means nothing at all . I am so dumfounded .

I cannot believe you can just forget about the things you said so easily .

You make me feel like a fool .

I cannot believe you can change so suddenly .

Worse is that I have no ff-ing idea what is wrong .

You make me look so much like a joker . Really thanks to you .

You make me think that you must have said the same to other people as well ,

that's why it comes and goes so easily for you .

I am not saving any of those smses anymore . It makes me so upset ,

makes me so much like a big fatty fool !

I thought you were really busy , but now I think you are not at all.

I really have no idea what the hell you're doing .

I am really speechless .

I AM SO FF-ING TIRED .

I really hate being fool to and you did it on me .

Now I know how are you like and I am so disappointed .

It really sucks big time !

Alright , I guess its freaking over .

That's enough , way enough for my vents .

" You wanna end it , I'll let it end then . "

CHEERS .

Finally , My goal is coming true .

My sexy wizzers darling is going to be lvl 150 in maple ...

TOMORROW ~ !

(before the patch to MS 2 LOL !)

- YAYNESS ---`

Also , thanks ChinChin for choosing me to be his training mate .

Without him , I don't think I have the urge to train till lvl 150

and also for the upcoming HT neck man , thanks big times !

Looking forward to Mondays' HT batch .

OH GOD ! Please drop 3 necks for me if not ,

the 2nd or da 1st person to be necked pls dc or die TY !

LOL !

(Sorry for my bad , I really can't wait ~ !)

I am sorry for those in msn earlier that talked to me .

To clarify , My pm is not telling you to F-OFF .

It's just that I am at the top of my anger just now

that's why I typed those words .

My bad man , Sorry to those peeps again .

I am A LOT happier when I am training just now in maple .

Thanks to :

Uncle Johnny , Auntie Toozie , Sarah

DaDa Pat , Sammy , Yang & ChinChin

for the fun topic we all chatting LOL !

I had so much fun and it helps to lift my mood up again !

Thanks once again .

I guess I'll only stick to missing my sexy hubby .

waiting for her to return to Singapore .

I've got so much to say to her about my misses & etc .

I still feel so much safer with her .

She's been the best friend I've ever had .

Please come back fast my Cathy Shin ~ !

Yul is empty without you by her side !

사랑해 ! ❤

I am happy again for the new start of the day LOL !

I've found 2 songs I wanted and also I've added something new !

I've added skins to my Mozilla Firefox !

It's on the top of the page and here's the one that I've put .

Click to see the large scale of my skins ! LOL !

I AM A HAPPY KID !

It's so simple to be happy . (:

Really late , gonna catch some sleep .

try to figure me out , you never can .

2009-05-18T00:24:00.005+08:00

lonely .

Model will be this cute lil' sheepy doll of my lil' sister .

Taken it in my bedroom . LOL .

Recently , things seems really quiet .

I even feel like a stranger to someone (no revealing who) .

This feeling just came suddenly .

I have no idea what happen and why .

But anw ,

I would say I had a wonderful Saturday .

Firstly , I had my lunch with KEE at NYNY !

Had PEACH COOLER & CHICKEN CHOP !

YUMMY CHICKEN CHOP !

After lunch , we took bus to Cine

to watch the movie ..

"ANGELS & DEMONS"

with Erika & YongYi .

it's a nice movie , the ending is rather suprising as well .

I shed a few tears as well as feeling butterflies in my tummy at some parts .

Some parts simply scares me due to the way how they're being killed .

Really nasty .

- FAINTS -

But I do have fun spending time with them .

After movie I went off to meet with my family

and something bad happen during dinner ..

It really spoils my mood .

nonsense .

but anw thanks to the following people that cheers me up ..

DORORIN : THANKS FOR THE HUGS !

CHINCHIN : THANKS FOR THE CHEER UP SMSES !

KEE : THANKS FOR THE OCTTI !

Here's a pic of OCTTI given by KEE !

SO CUTE RIGHT ! xD

hahas .

I am happy to have known these people in my life .

They really added colors to my life ~ !

Right now , I just finished my msn conversation with my

HUBBY SHIN !

HOLY CRAP !

I wanna cry badly !

I MISS HER HUG SO BADLY !

I WANT HER BACK TO SINGAPORE BADLY !

- SCREAM DIE --- `

당신이보고 싶습니다.

2009-05-14T03:34:00.004+08:00

I feel just as lonely as her .

It seems to me that people around me ain't happy today .

I thought my AiAi is busy in school and will be

going swimming with his friends after school so

that's why he did not text me at all .

I was also kinda busy cleaning the house

as it's full of dust , ceremic dust .

ewwww.

When it's in between 6 - 7 pm ,

I recieved a message from him saying that

he was sleeping & also not in da mood .

At 1st I thought he was just having what we all

'Wednesday blues'

So I just tell him to cheer up and continue my cleaning up .

At that point of time , I've already said the word

'CHEER UP'

to 2 more friends of mine .

So now it's he's the 3rd person I've said that word to .

Then all of a sudden , after like 10 mins ,

I was really worried when I saw what he reply me .

'I am crying .'

0_O , I really have no idea what has happen to him .

I try to cheer him more cause' I feel there's no need

for me to know so much but he did not reply anymore ,

which is why I am so damn worried .

All I can do is to hope he's fine again . I feel so helpless .

I really can't help him in anything but just to comfort him .

I really misses his cute side today . really .

Miss the cheerful him . D:

He didn't make my day and I too ,

didn't make his day at all .

Then to ChinChin , He has headache the whole day .

I guess it's because of the weather as well as he did not

have enough rest I guess .

He also told me he was sad to feel sick

and all I can say is 'Cheer up' .

(he was the 2nd person that I've said that to)

He seems happier when he was home but still ,

he's feeling very tired .

We had our usual training since I was going to level up .

After I had my wizzers leveled ,

had a very short msn chat and off he go to rest .

ps:

He wants me to change the 'brother' from

the previous post to other stuff .

I guess I'll change it to buddies perhaps ?

(but I kinda have like a few buddies as well ?)

Also to KEE ..

Early morning he was sad over

unable to squeeze something out for his powerpoint .

He also feeling sad and I said the word 'Cheer up' .

(The 1st person)

Then he have his mock test and it ends pretty okays i suppose .

Then we play audition together before I went to train .

After training and ChinChin went off ,

I went audi with him again to play .

IT WAS TERRIBLE I CAN SAY .

The freaking patch made the whole game have

screen freeze or something . Irritating !

I miss lots of bars n blah blah .

NOT HAPPY .

There's when Kee told me to cheer up .

(now I got that myself .)

we both just have a few games and off to msn

before he have to sleep as there's school for him tomorrow .

Then again , it happens .

Some funny italian guy from facebook

keeps fighting over him in buying me .

It's kinda nice to know that he wanted to

earn enough game coins to get his gf back

but on the other hand , it's so irritating for Kee

as he has to buy me back , causing him to lose coins .

That's when he gets upset again .

BOO .

Everyone please CHEEEER UPP YAHS ?

It's so tired to be upset !

It'll cause me to be unhappy as well !

SO NOT HAPPY !

I wanna sleep .

~~F-OFF .~~

as angry as Yesung oppa !

거짓말.

2009-05-13T16:53:00.010+08:00

--- 너라고 ` ♫

(It's You)

예성오빠 ~ ❤

- DIED -

Yesung is simply so charming can ! GAAAH ~

I am so so HAPPY to see the MV of the song !

Even though it was a leaked , but nevermind , just see it ! LOL !

All 13 guys is simply so good looking , love die them !

Also , I wanna thank 13infamyss from soompi forum

for making this gif. image for me ! ❤

Alright , I promise ChinChin that

I'll make a post all about him ...

Actually , I'm Suppose to post it before I sleep ,

but I'm too sleepy so I shall post it now . SORRY ! LOLS .

Even though it's just a simple few months of friendship ,

but all these is enough to know how Mr ChinChin is like .

I can admit that he has been a really good brother ,

always taking care of me ( as well as the others )

without asking for anything in return . ( berry nice guy ! )

He is always so honest to everyone and yeah ,

that's really what friends should be !

Yesterday's training made me know more about him .

Even though he did have doubts for me but it's alright ,

afterall we are still not berry close friends .

He was rather upset over some matters but it's good

to see him cheerful again after awhile .

He told me when he was feeling down , he'll tell himself not to be down .

Why ?

Simply because it's not worth to make himself sad and tired .

"We all only live once , so why not live happily ?"

I go agree on that and that's why I am also doing that .

When I am feeling down , I'll tell myself to cheer up .

The more you think about unpleasant stuff , the more tired you became .

I've learn that in a hard way but the results is really great .

I've become a more cheerful person and that makes me so happy !

I notice that humans can be happy for just small little things .

So I don't ask for much , but I am asking for my small little

things to come and make me happy !

It's been rather boring at 1st staying at home .

but all thanks to ChinChin for bringing me out .

I had lots of fun with him yeahs ~

But time is kinda running too fast though ,

ChinChin will be going NS in June .

-SAD DIE-

I think I gonna be bored again when he was away .

So I better get a job fast to keep me occupied .

Make myself busy is also a good think to think lesser .

hahas .

This shall be the end of MrChinChin post !

LOOKING FORWARD FOR TOMORROW'S

PEACH COOLER MAKING !

- YAYNESS --- `

anw , for those interested in the MV of the song ,

simply click the link below and enjoy !

너라고 (Neorago)

end .

O-o-only for you O-o-only for you ~

2009-05-12T04:52:00.008+08:00

bloggggginggg --- `

HELLO ! I AM BACK !
lol .
It's been so long since I update again ...
WHY ? Simply because I'm lazy , plain lazy ...
Basically I have no idea why I stop blogging also lol .
I did have things to blog for the past few 'donkey' months but yup ,
simple did not blog at all .
Now that I'm back again , I wonder when will I 'MIA' again ... LOL !

Currently , life is calm and quiet , no crazy stuff at all .
I can say I am quite pleased with it .
As people in life always comes and go , it's no suprise that
I've meet lots of new people as well as letting go of many others .
It doesn't really matter now ...
(3:35 am , I'm still not sleepy ...)

These few months has be really a change for me ...
( perhaps that's why I decides to blog again ? lol . )
1ST .
I had my new haircut . Really different haircut .
But it turns out quiet cool , so happy happy I am !
2ND .
I did not only play maple , I also start play audition .
really funny thing .
those up down left right keys became part of my life
'entertainment' . sheesh .
I even got married in there , just like maple .
with all the heart taggings , beautiful ring ... o_O
- laughs die --- `
3RD .
I am once again addicted to something .
a group of boys , simple 13 boys ...

SUPER JUNIOR .

lols .
these are just the simple simple addicts a girl has ?
charming guys , nice voice etc ...
don't wish to elaborate .

4TH .
According to my previous posts , I did say I wanna go NAFA .
AND YES , I am going NAFA as a Design & Media student .
Like finally .
From what Shuling told me , I guess will be doing tons of assignments .
I gonna be really busy in July . D:
However , it's gonna be really good cause there will be lesser time
for me to think of things that doesn't exist .
cheers (:

5TH .
I have become a more cheerful person .
I feel that I had been too serious with everything .
REALLY , EVERYTHING .
It really worn me out a lot but now , It feels a lot better to relax .
Thanks to my dearie mummy , supporting me all da way .

Talk about recently ...
Mothers' Day had been a different day .
The day before , I was at my cousin house for BBQ .
It's her beautiful birthday and the BBQ was great .
I thought the whole family will be spending Mothers' Day .
In the end , we all went a separate way .
Cousins , Aunt & my lil' sis went out with mummy .
Sis and bf went out .
Dad's home alone .
I accompanied ChinChin to cut his hair
& had dinner in NewYork NewYork .
Thanks ChinChin a lot , He's been a really nice guy .
( he's not only when he's acting cute , FAIL .)
hahas .

Along the way , I was also texting AiAi .
But due to busy crapping with ChinChin ,
I always reply late . I can't multitask .
BOO . D:

Talking about AiAi ...
He was actually just a young little boy ,
but constantly putting a smile on my face .
He's really naughty , but naughty in a cute way .
Cute till his cuteness is making me jealous .
- MESS YOUR HAIR --- `
Come to think of it ,
These 2 people has also become someone
I will think of before I go lalaland .
So not good . LOL ! ( joking . )

ANW .
CHINCHIN IS SO WIN !
He's getting me something from my wishlist .
- YAYNESS --- `

alright .
I will say that when there's someone you wanna thank ,
there will be someone you wanna say sorry to as well .
I would like to say my sorry to KEE .
It's been really great to know you and to have so much fun with you .
But some how , when I get to know more of you ,
I notice it's really hard to face you sometimes .
You are nice , but too nice . I can't handle it .
When you say you will be waiting , I can feel that guiltiness .
I really have no idea how long will it take . So Sorry .
When you become less cheerful because of me ,
I really hope to just wipe off your memories of me .
I hate to make someone sad because of me .

I do hope we stay as now .
Nice and peaceful .

.
.
.

I think I should be beat up by someone .
- bishbangkickslap --- `
& I really agree with what my twinneh have said .

"follow your heart ."

I have to ask my heart what I should do .

Damn .
It's so late now .
My eyes are closing at last , so I shall end here alright ?

Suddenly ,
I want a hug so badly .
I want to eat sweet potato so badly .
I want to drink peach cooler so badly .
I want to feel the wind blowing at my face so badly .
I want to stare at a dark rainy sky so badly .
I want to kidnap my HubbyShin to me so badly .
I want to have more time to do more stuff so badly .
I want to turn back time so badly .
I want to smile again so so badly .
- hugs lumpy & cry die --- `
D:

너라고.

2008-11-09T06:08:00.000+08:00

I AM FREAKING PISSED :D

2008-10-17T02:26:00.002+08:00

DAN B TYPE CROBIDOLL xDD

isn't he HOT ?!?
I swear I wanna get him sia, but I need time to save up yah. HE's not just like any "Barbie" dolls that you can buy for like SGD$29.90+++... It's freaking expensive I tell you but I gues it's gonna be freaking worth to buy him and dress him up for photo shoots man! He's just too hot and sexy to be neglected by ME lmao~!

JOB hunt gonna starts from next week onwards and school plan is starting as well. Hope daddy would very much think about what I am gonna tell him about school :D

MAY GOD BLESS ME YO xD

and guess it's time to think of a name for my DAN B CROBIDOLL xDD

i wanna get Mr DAN B ASAP!!! <33

2008-10-16T01:45:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna rot and die at home very soon...

come to think of it, I really wonder what should my next step be? I seriously cannot take it just rotting at home staring at the com and just playing games all day. I wanna go back to school, go back to work.

I'm gonna look for a job again. Organise my time and maybe work and study. It may be busy but at least, there's something to do again.

It's going to be 4th month for me and my boy and I am seriously looking forward to it. (: There may be times that we are bored and had no idea where to go or what to do, but we're still happy together just sitting somewhere or he'll cycle me around haha :D

I hope things will be better for me in all ways and I miss my lil wife cathy and the other girls that have painted my life with colours.

i wanna study in NAFA badly >.<

2008-10-13T11:35:00.000+08:00

It's been DEAD since I started working...

There isn't anything I could talk about my lately "Working" life as it's basically is STRESSFUL, TIRED and more TIRED...

I wouldn't wanna ram my working life shiit all over here, so I'll just leave my blog to DEAD for awhile llolx....

It's pretty much alive now I guess cause I'm not working there anymore. I'll looking for new job, working towards a goal in life that I've just made up yesterday. Wanna thanks ShuLing a lot for the msn convo, about what courses I should take up. She really help me got a "hint" of what I should do next.

Seriously, I just can't wait to find a new job and go back to SCHOOL xD Afterall, School is still the best place to ram ur craps about lol!

till then, gonna go catch with my lil' games xD

When the smile isn't a real smile.

2008-09-08T01:31:00.004+08:00

went to watch WALL.E with my cousins, mum and lil' sista.
The movie is so damn nice! will gib 5 bloops for it~! llolx

But the movie isn't a 100% comfort for me due to the god damn it cramps of my period.
The pain is sooo freaking gonna kill me zZz HATE IT BOOOOOO~ so I decide to go home earlier.

I was suppose to go home and rest and when I'm almost there, I notice I forgot to bring my SEXY KEYS out!!!! (how lucky can that be?)

but at least I was spared by God perhaps, cuz in the end I manage to used some poles can try to hook my sexy bag with my sexy keys out as I notice the window is not closed. (but dun worry, it's closed now LOL xD~)

my boy did gave me a fews calls and we did have short chats here and there. Got inside the home at last, I went online, and that's when I decide to say how I feel and I am berry happy that he is not upset about the problem that I had instead, he is willing to give me time. So all along, I've been thinking way too much. Now I tell myself, I'm gonna really love my baby boy a lot a lot~!

I LOVE YOU SHAWN~! <33

I really mean what I've typed above xD~

and thanks mum for rushing home, for worrying about me. At least I know you had been worried about me, even though it may be just once. (:

Guess I've been thinking way too much. zZz

think less, live longer? LOL O.O"

2008-09-07T11:33:00.003+08:00

when you know I coulnd't do it, I guess you must be thinking I thought he was you.
I could feel that there's no more image of us in you or perhaps, you never even have the image of us.

I could feel that it wasn't going be how we plan to be or just, I thought it would be.

and for god damn it reason, my mum seems happier to see my cousin than me. -'-

do I really have the image of us?

2008-09-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

There's no point trying when you are never given a chance by others at all.

do you remember when exactly the last time I smile from the bottom of my heart?
since when is the last time you truly look at me, worrying if I've been well?
when you complain about all the things you dislike about me,
have you praise me about things I've done well?
and do you remember when's the last time we sat together and enjoy ourselves?

I wonder where do I actually stand in your heart.
you told me you were tired but do you know I am tired as well?
you only believe the people you trust, how about me?
I am suppose to be together with you guys but why, I'm always not counted in?
you said you were fair, but why are you siding others, believing others than me?

I was told to take time for you all to accept me but all I get is labels and more labels,
labels that will never get a chance for you al to see that I've changed and should be
given a chance. I was blame most on everything, things I did do I was also account of doing it.
I tried to explain but was never given a chance. When I finally cleared my name, you all just
think that I'm just lucky. How painful can this be? UNBEARABLE.

Whatever I've done will never be appreciate by you guys. I was treated a stranger.
Where do I belong exactly? Who is going to get me out of this cold dark place?
I'm tried and lost but I will never be out of this place...
I'm cold
I'm torn
I'm giving up on you guys...

I'm label as "outcast" since the day I was born. damn.

2008-08-21T23:54:00.002+08:00

going to be a month working...

going to be two months with my dearest in two days time...

come to think about it, I really do cherish the times that we're together... even though it may be just a few hours, but that's more than enough. I do knowhere are so many differences between us but like wad the quote by Adrienne Willis from the book "nights in Rodanthe" :

"there's a kind of love that makes you think anything is possible."

I really do feel that it true, but do you?

will you walk down the lane together with me till it end?

2008-08-17T23:33:00.001+08:00

I seriously need a lot of rest.

overloaded and dying.

2008-08-02T00:31:00.009+08:00

Is it so hard just not to touch those stuff?

when you told, all my smiles for the day is gone. I hope I just dunno about it and I know you're just being honest however, your reason to "support" such act simply dun convince me at all. Intead, totally spoils my mood.

You may think I'm being too sensitive or unreasonable but it's just a simple thing I ask for. I even told you way before we are together and yet, you treat it as joke or what?

Sometimes I wonder is it because I'm too nice? Or just to say I forgive people to easily that's why there's no words going in to any of you ears. So what should I do? It's not about the feeling anymore, it all about the reality, the difference that we need to get it right. If you decide to keep this way, I may have to do something about it.

SO is it possible to just fufill this simple thing I ask from you? I wonder what will be the answer. If you decide to be with yours friends, by all means go ahead. However when you have something, you have to give up another.

I dun wanna force you.

I'm just asking for such a simple thing.

will you do it for the sake of me?

2008-07-23T23:56:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND MY LOVELY BOY~! (: <33

is it wrong to care about you?

2008-07-19T01:09:00.010+08:00

it feels like decades since we talk again...

before my birthday, you told me you would bring me out to celebrate but yet, you just disappear from nowhere, almost into the thin air. I was hurt, thinking that you decided to throw me aside. Just last week, I saw ur msn nick written "I'm just a puppet...". I thought you were refering to me. angry, I shoot you right off da face yet you told me that it wasn't me. I'm still in a doubt therefore, this time round I told myself to throw you aside like how you did to me.

but I failed.

I had been waiting for your sms, getting excited when my phone rang when a sms came, yet I didn't recieve any from you. At that point of time I thought to myself, "there goes our friendship going into da history..."

Yet recently our histoy is being open up again. You sms me thinking that I was angry with you whereby all along, I've been worried dead about you. I can't explain why I am dead worried but one thing I know is you're someone that I've always feels that you need alot of care and security and I wanted to give you that. You always did not eat well in camps, haven't been happy and haven't been smiling since the time we went bishan to eat abit n walk walk, whereby you gave me a cute Patrick plushie. Do you remember?

maybe you thought that we would've been more than friends but no matter what, you are still someone that from time to time, I'm always worried about. You may think that I will forget about you after I'm with my boy but I've always been thinking whether you have been eating well, resting well...

I may not be able to help you on your problems now but one thing I feel that is, you must be happy and move one again like how you used to. I will be waiting for the happy you to be back once again, and I guess that will be the time when you and *ShE will have the happy ending. Even if it did not happen (I cross my fingers), I will still be there, always be there. I PROMISE YOU. (:

SO...

today, I've went to watch "The Dark Knight" with my boy. It's was rather a nice movie but only some parts of it are abit "boring" -_-" But I love a quote from the movie:

"You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain."

It wad said by Harvey Dent in da movie. Berry impressive quote. love it (:

in fact, it was true isn't it? People will tend to turn into the dark side from time to time when they live too long.

I do have times when I am a villain myself, am utterly regret about those nasty things that I've done, yet everyone had been a villain themselves before so I guess we all need time to think about what we really should be.

all right, time to hit da bed. going kite flying with my boy again. (: ciao~!

berry 1st kite flying with my boy! xD

am I ever remember by someone?

2008-07-08T22:45:00.006+08:00

I seriously hope these farktards can just fuck off from my life. _l_

I misss my boyyyyyyyyyy *loves xD

cant's wait to leave that BLOODY PLACE.

2008-07-05T00:54:00.009+08:00

3rd July 2008...

DRUMSET FIGURING FROM DEON DIDI~!

THANKS DEON -loves!

4th July 2008...

watched HANCOCK with my boy.
went to eat at Xing Wang Cafe @ Cine. Not bad, but too full. :x
but when we're on da way to cine, I wanted to cross da road when it's still red light ended up being horned by a car. DAMMIT LAH!

Embrassed.

hide my face.

2008-07-03T00:24:00.008+08:00

my small lil' cake.

Finally I'm officially 18 years old.

and best damn thing was, I actually had the "BEST" ever birthday! -'-

I guess it's gonna be more and more "FUN" in the coming years.

I'm seriously heart-DEAD on you all, farktards.

2008-07-02T01:25:00.006+08:00

1 JULY 2008...

Another day of working, waiting for my time to off work and meet my boy!

went over to IMM'S SWENSENS and had our dinner. Have a dumb laugh over something that I do not know about cuz my boy keep laughing like mad, making my "laughing nerves/ sensory" begin triggered and same goes to me, laughing like never before.. embrassing.. zZz

spent of own time together till aroung 8pm sharp den off we go off home and hit our computers and phone gags. LOL

nothing more to add accept...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
I'M OFFICIALLY 18 YEARS OLD~!

*sweats* I'm freaking dumb enough to wish myself happy birthday.
whatever. lmao.

it's gonna b another quiet day.

2008-06-29T23:33:00.006+08:00

PROUDLY ANNOUNCE THAT MY MYULCHI BOKKEUM IS A SUCCESS!

myulchi bokkeum!

heehee, bought it over to my cousin's place and share the myulchi bokkeum with them~

very peaceful day, nice to nap on the big sofa but the weather is freaking busted hot. spoiler. LOL

YESTERDAY, 28/06/08...

Is been rather dumb this morning... Kareen and I were trying to heat up a hotdog. We went to take out the damn hospital equipments from the equipment heater and happily put the hotdog in it. trying to impress it on the blog by taking a picutre when we notice the damn microwave is just on top of the heater (SMART RIGHT?). DAMMIT. embrass laaaaaaa.........zZz but we still manage to heat up the hotdog, so it's still a success~! LOL!

hotdog in the heater -.-"

the damn microwave on the top. zZz

mission accomplish! xD

went to watch "GET SMART" with my baby boy. had a freaking great laugh about the movie hahas. damn funny. xD then went to walk walk and have our dinner. The best time is when we sat at the top of Vivo watching cute innocent kids playing their hearts out in the water, with soft breeze blowing our faces. never felt so peaceful for a long long time.

He send me home once again, and we had our usual phone crapping till its time hit our beds haha.

working tomorrow again *argh!

3 more days to go. WOOTS!

2008-06-27T01:14:00.001+08:00

It's been a great day going out with my boy (:

went Cine buy my myulchi bokkeum ingredients then went over to have a little dinner Kobayashi. Food there not bad but not berry berry good zZz...

Had a lil walk around the differet shops in Orchard and shared a Hot Chocolate together.

My boy send me all da way downstairs my block. that's reali sweet lahs.

kinda lazy to type more due to low energy, dozing offffff...

you're simly as sweet as chocolates today. loves <3

2008-06-25T03:32:00.000+08:00

simply dunno what's wrong with some people today.

PISSED OFFFFFFFF.

but not pissed with my boy (:

2008-06-23T02:24:00.000+08:00

those messages you've sent brought me to tears....

the tears of happiness!

I'll never forget today but still, I'm waiting for the right day to come.

and I'm sure my answer is already known...

It's gonna be BIG BIG YES.

2008-06-21T03:10:00.000+08:00

ON 17/06/08, TUESDAY, MR FATTY BOM BOM GOLDFISH HAD PASSED AWAY...
SADLY TO SAY, NO CORPSE IS FOUND AS OTHER GOLDFISHES HAD ATE HIM UP... -'-

MAY FATTY BOM BOM R.I.P *amen

The above dedication is really true. The fatty bom goldfish is from my workplace's fish tank. That day, I was alone as I'll be working nightshift. Bored, so I went over to da fish tank to look 4 fatty bom. seach seach abit den I scream to see fatty bom died in a corner, his body empty, leaving only those pathetic face and eyes of the helpless gold fish. Text Karren and told her the shocking news. For the next few days, we did not dare to go near the fish tank only when is time to feed those "FISH EATERS".

TODAY 21/06/08, FATTY BOM BOM ONLY LEFT BONES FOR TO US TO MOURN... sob~

okays, lets stop talking about killer fishes...

AFTERNOON...

went out with him again. watched KUNGFU PANDA~!

laugh till the arse can come out lo..

then walk walk to buy something for missy KAREEN de birthday~! Tomorrow going her party bash~! LOL

he even accompany me to my area just to buy wrapping paper to wrap the present. Feels abit bad cuz he live so far from me =x almost the other end of the map. It'll be better if he live just beside me! LOL

enjoyed my day totally~ *giggles

hope to see him again~!

ur big big warm warm de hands. xD

2008-06-20T02:03:00.000+08:00

it all started once again.

the meet up is extremely different from what I thought it'll be.

never felt so comfortable before..

but somehow something's still cage inside of me.

need some time to figure it out.

thanks for that day, 19.06.08~

thanks for saying you love me xD

2008-06-03T04:19:00.000+08:00

In your eyes, I'm all along a friend.
In your eyes, I'm never more than a friend.
In your eyes, I'm all along a girl that you call to chat when you're bored.
In your eyes, I'm never in your heart.

you will never get to see how painful it was that makes me cried.

but oh well, I guess I'm never in your eyes at all.

totally heart dead...

...and heart broken.

2008-05-28T16:11:00.000+08:00

I guess it's better off this way.

I'm going to let it go.

2008-05-15T16:33:00.000+08:00

It's been like decades since I last blog. lols -.-"

had a wonderful day out with my dearest Kareen <33

went to Nihon Mura (Japan Village) to have my lunch after work...

I couldn't explain much there as everything is so peacful, food is absolute delicious. Pictures is all I can show to express my happy happy times there...

YUMMY~

WOOO~

ROSE TEA~ME~ LOL

AFTER FOOD...

We were abit crazy over photo taking and there you go, some retards photos of me...

RETARD NO. 1 -.-"

RETARD NO. 2 =.="

RETARD NO. 3 ~.~"

OH WELL...

Enough of da retards. I took pictures of me thinking of some stuff, like so real lidat. LOL

DRINKING TEA

DRINKING TEA AGAIN

DRINKING TEA MORE

LOL, SO EMO SIA...

but that's how it should be...

TMR GOT WORK GTG SLP LIAO...

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

waiting for you to say what you should've always said.

2008-04-28T17:11:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON???

that BLOODY "F" just spoils eveything.

that UNCLEAR message of yours is driving me crazy.

that BURDEN is making me so tired.

this LIFE is going way to messy and I just seems to lag behind.

too fast for me.

any help from anyone?

new job coming....

*hugs Lumpy and try to sleep.

(STOP)

going towards depression AGAIN.

2008-04-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

I dunno whether is it a good or a bad thing when you told me to read your blog.

I'm berry speechless when I read ur blog and all I could think of is to meet you up and have my last fun with you.

If your 20% chance is not come true, I hope at least I could send you off.

hope to hear from you soon my dearest girl. gonna miss you.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

missing those days.

2008-04-13T17:07:00.000+08:00

After what happen yesterday, I finally get to know where I actually stand in ur heart.

no worries, I know what to do now.

found a quote by some Anonymous people but it's berry true.

"We ignore the ones who adore us, and adore the ones who ignore us."

how true can it be?

BERRY.

(STOP)

Happy 3rd month anniversay.

2008-04-12T16:55:00.000+08:00

WORN OUT BUT HAD A WONDERFUL ADVENTURE~~~ LOL

MORNING...

make sure my choco are well done and slept at 7am~! (*_*)

AFTERNOON...

choco are all packed and stuff ready but I FORGOT to take my bag which ended up going home again. -.-" Meet Kareen around 2pm lidat and off we go SENGKANG, but we chat chat chat until we forgot to ALIGHT?!!?!!?!!??! SO PS LA ZZZ. We're suppose to alight at Outram but ended up at Raffles and we just crossed over thinking that we can take back but is da wrong place -.-" but nevermind, we ended up in Douby, also not bad *ahahahas

took da train till SENGKANG and follow ppl up to da LRT. 'cause Lovely says that his house is at RUMBAI and we just say a BERRY BIG PLATE that had the place written there and since we're both "STREET IDIOTS", we went in without checking whether the train is west loop or east loop... GREAT -.-"

took one whole round back to da sengkang LRT station and was appoach by one of da worker there telling us what loop to take and AT LAST FOR HEAVEN SAKE, I'VE REACH THERE...

MEETING LOVELY...

POWER~! that's all I could think of. Come like wind go like wind. Travel down SENGKANG 50 MINTUES and meet him 5 SECONDS only. *ZAI BO -.-" zZZ

BEDOK...

went to DINO da hse there and was rather pissed by him. See me already still dun wan come take da choco, still say wait wait to his fren somemore~! *SPEECHLESS

BUFFY MUM was awesome~! Had a berry berry wonderful conversation with her. xD She's a berry easy going person and I do look forward to see her again~! BEST OF ALL, she's such a CUTE mummy~! <33

KELVIN...

I felt damn bad I tell you, I say meet any place he is willing to come over and meet me but since I going dinner with Kareen and her friends, we ended up meet each other at da platform towards north east line. At least I passed him da choco and yup, he ate all of them and comment that it was nice~! but I wanna say I really thank him as he had been there giving me support when I was almost on da verge to give up. Really really thank him~! <33

DINNER...

Dinner was AWESOME~! Mr M (Kareen de fren) is freaking funny 'cause of his shirt, "M" (no details provided.) But we really had a lot of fun and I've met many of Kareen's friends. Best of all, they're berry friendly. (:

OVERALL, it was not a bad adventure. I get to see those peeps I wanna see, get a feel of the "alien WEST SIDE" with a few "alien people" but yup, not bad uh. -.-"

and I wanna thank KAREEN for taking her time off to accompany me for da adventure LOL

LOVE KAREEN TO BITS AND PIECES~! <33

TOTALLY WORN OUT.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

act shy buay shy de, CHICKEN LA BOOO -.-"

2008-04-11T17:06:00.000+08:00

you sound as though it's gonna taste THAT BAD.

FINE.

I'm gonna continue on with da plan and if it turns out shit, den fuck it.

SCREW IT.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

do you know can be berry idiotic at times?

2008-04-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

I'm having a great conference on da phone with Buffy mum and Lovely. However, I felt something different after the conversation.

I notice I didn't know as much as the both of them do. Feels rather weird, like a stranger.

WELL...

You called everyday and yet is a miricale that we don't feel bored only lately (I feel that way). But why you always bring me down and then up again? I seriously have no idea what to do. When you bring me down, I feel that everything is like an ending but you then bring it up again. Did you ever notice you're making me hanging in between? I'm berry tired of hanging there.

I rather you let go and bring me go all the way down but anyway, I doubt you'll bring me all the way up.

Nevermind.

I'm going to give one last shot. No matter what the outcome will be, I'm well prepared, espcially for the worst. (:

***Making in Process***

Secret~! <33

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

MAY GOD BLESS ME~!

2008-04-04T16:52:00.000+08:00

It seems rather depressing when I read my dearest wifey's blog. She's going through something that I have no idea at all.

She didn't ring me up,
She didn't pick my call,
She didn't have time to meet me either.

I'm dead WORRIED about her seriously.

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG WILL YOU?!?!

Oh yeah, just awhile ago, some irritating noob just talk to me on msn just to tell me I look a little scary on my msn display pic. For ur info mr. NOOB:

you don't like it please don't look at it then, freak off thank you and dun be lame to comment on it if you don't like it, do you think your pics look any better? If you do, so be it but I don't think so... zZz -.-"

I have no idea what happen but whenever we talk about meeting up, you always sounds so irritated, almost like you gonna scold your shiit off me but whatever, I've got my plans, so you shall wait and see... -.-"

I still can't understand why you are like that. IS IT THAT HARD TO MEET? ARE YOU THAT SHY?!?! I DON'T THINK SO FOR FREAKING SAKE!!!

nevermind, I guess we'll end all this nonsense one day, perphaps even tomorrow? Or WORSE, right now, at this point? I've got no idea about that...

I'M DEAD TIRED.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

everything's coming to an end.

2008-04-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

trying to act blur?

NICE ONE DUDE.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to DOOM land.

(STOP)

how tired can that be? VERY

2008-03-23T17:50:00.000+08:00

update... *toot toot llolx~!

went out with Jie, HJ and winny(kapook) to Pepper Lunch on good friday. Had so much fun crapping and "throwing lemons" at each other. As usual, HJ is da "diam" kid and Winny(kapook) is da "lemon" winner *sweats.

After da lunch is HOME HOME HOME, as raining days makes me moody. All those freaking busted nonsense memories and problems will flood my brain like free lidat. *siann diao

HOME...

nothing much, usual routine of hugging Lumpy and GAME MADNESS BEGINS...

mum isn't home yesterday as she stays overnight at cousin's house till today. GUESS what? I actually thought I'm in some horror movie as I'm alone at home~! damn scary I tell you but oh well, I GAME almost like free lidat, nobody bothers to care. It's rather weird yet peaceful feeling though... lols -.-"

dunno wad to blog liao, berry lazy also...I'm getting more n more lazy, God pls drag me outta laziness...or someone pls shoot me in da heart LOL~!

I dunno why I actually misses my Lovely more than usual. *wonders

off liao~! *BEEPS

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

meeting sensei soon xD

2008-03-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

Finally, my very own made blog skin is done! *dance xD

took quite a lot of time to find the prefect images. I even sofen the picture, to make it like a dream kinda feeling. Quiet and Peace, like a child in me. ahahas xD

I do admit as well that I've been rather depress due to many things that had happen. I almost cry every night as they're too abundant, way too much for me. I do always claim that I'm old but that doesn't mean that I am an adult fully. I know I'm still a kid, and I always be. Yet, you all gave me so many burdens to carry. I'm not that strong enough.

I thought I'm gonna drop dead straight if there's gonna be even more burdens carry but I'm so contended that the burdens are now getting lesser. I'm learning how to put them down, especially those that I've no control over it. I'll be trying to get over all these, hope it will go away asap.

WELL...

I really wanna thank those peeps that was with me on last sat. You guys make me forgot all my burdens. Went NewYork NewYork for lunch that day. Had so much fun making cotton candy as well as photo shooting with them. My 'bf' Kareen's "O-zing" cheese made me have a good laugh and Chris moo have been rather excited the whole day, we seriously are a bunch of insane kids that afternoon.

But I just love the way we are! *giggles

HOME...

went home to game as well as phone with my lovely. He's been a great listening ear but I still, won't want him to carry burden with him. I want him to enjoy his life to the fullest as in no time, he will be going to a different stage in life. probably so. hahas.

We had be gagging on the phone everyday but somehow, there isn't any of the "I had to talk to you again = bored" feeling even though there's time where he called and we didn't even talk for whole few minutes. Is like, even if we're not talking, the presence of us listening to the surrounding of each other or even the breathe we are taking just made us peace out. I mean, that's how I feel, maybe because I love to listen that's why. llolx

SCHOOL...

My grad project is finally done, only left with my presentation and that's it. I can't wait to graduate and work as much as I can, to earn tons of bucks to pay for my advance diploma. *duh I'm gonna study study and STUDY! HAH! xD

but not forgetting my games *hehehe, they're still on my list ~

Love those that cares for me from deep down of my heart <3

extra love for lovely though *ahahas xD

NEWYORK NEWYORK!

With Chris *MOO

Cotton Candy Love

*hugs Lumpy and goes to Dreamland.

(STOP)

blah blah blahs hahas.

2008-03-13T19:05:00.000+08:00

I wonder how long more can my mask hide my face,

the face of depression that makes people laugh at it.

I wonder how long more can I stand strong,

like how I used to be.

I wonder how long will I take all the nonsense,

that you all trying to flood me with.

I wonder why you choose to be my listening ear,

when you know it's gonna be a huge burden.

you may blame me for saying that you're young,

but that's the only excuse I have.

I care for you,

so I don't wish you to become my listening ears.

most importantly,

when you're happy, I'll be happy for you.

but well, I may leave you one day,

and I hope you will understand why.

Come to think of it,

I really am gonna miss you.

Happy 2nd month anniversary lovely.

*hugs Lumpy, hopefully you as well.

(STOP)

hiding myself.

2008-03-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

I’m so tired. Everything isn’t going smooth at all.

Things I hope it’ll go smooth all went the wrong way. I tried to be positive but it just seems to make it so worse that I just can’t be positive about it. I really have idea what to do. Why is this all happening again? *sigh

WORK...

You told me that you had problems with your friends, you leave them and you’re sad and alone. I thought by treating you better it will make you feel much better that at least there’s always a friend to be there. I tried to make some joke by smsing “Got miss me anot?”, yet, you went around telling people that I like you and said I have mood swings and all the shit. Man, I didn’t know this at first. I thought everything is just okays with you leaving me alone but you make up all these assumption and made people to get the wrong idea of me.

My God, you seriously make me regret knowing already.

If it wasn’t someone there to tell me you spread those assumptions, I guess I’ll be a freaking fool for the rest of my Converse life till I leave for another job. I was so disappointed with you I tell you. I can’t believe you’re so thick skinned and seriously brainless enough to say that. I want you to read it clearly now ANKT:

You’re so freaking too over confident that all girls will like you, please look at a mirror. You had a freaking brainless mouth that things you’ve said is freaking brainless that makes people hurt. You always only blame on people, pushing all blames to others. You always wanna win to impress your freaking ego. You’re so childish. You’re so fake. I guess you’ve got too many too name. That it’s for now.

You said you don’t like working with me, I tell you, on that day we had our first conflict; I don’t wish to work with you anymore. That day was such a lousy day man; you “shoot” me with so many nasty things. I just hate to work with you. I rather die then to work with you. *drop dead

So now, I’ve made my choice. I’m gonna treat you like a stranger.

HOME...

Same old problem, mum’s unhappy with me for no reason. I seriously hate it and I hope I can just scream out loud. I wanna run away seriously. Who will take me in? *wonders
Lovely is away for camp and with all these happening, I really hope he is here now to listen to me. I miss a listening ear more than anything else now. Want him to come home badly. *sob

SCHOOL...

Graduation project’s deadline is coming soon and I only did half of it. Gonna rush already, make myself busy like some idiot and let’s just hope God will lead me to where I should be in and I can’t wait to pass my challenge. *lols -.-

Wanna faint.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

you choose to spoil it, so here will be the end of us.

2008-02-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why people are so simple minded... I mean, sometimes, is obvious that things are not simple but yet, you just treat it so simple, like ABC? I have no idea what to do; all I can do is to see you being scam like nobody’s business...

You tell yourself that you’re not gonna fight anymore but even an idiot knows it will never happen, unless there’s a miracle? I seriously have no freaking idea about it. If you do make it, I call you father for a week!

I SWEAR!

But Oh well, May you fall and stand up again and again where all of us have seen it so many times till we’re tired. Is good thing that you did not notice about us, because it may hurt if you do notice? It just seems that your “Pride” is more important till you never notice that you are after all “stupid” like a joker around us. We are not blaming you, we just cannot understand why you are like that, and can’t you notice at all? Is rather obvious sometimes...

I have no idea but I seriously hope you can be more “clever” next time yeah?

Me and Lovely gonna know each other for 4 months and within these 4 months, we actually gone through quite a lot, the anger and sadness as well as all the good and bad. I do notice sometimes you do remember what I’ve said before, and I appreciate that. I wanted you to know that I am missing you all the time, just like you did (i guess xD). I may make you think that I don’t bother about you, don’t miss you cause it isn’t so nice to express so much for me lahs. LOL -.-"

But I do always know that things you said are true but just that I wanna joke around, saying that “I don’t believe you”, hope you understand okays...

SO...

Life without school is rather boring but glad that there is work, graduation project, maple (?!) and of course you to make my life busier? llolx (:

But I do look forward for our 2nd month anniversary OK! xD ahahahas

And 2 days ago when lovely slept early, I had a great conversation with my Deon didi, I would say that he was in fact, a lot better than 2 other didi that I have. Things that I talk about he did knows roughly how to deal with it which I feel rather glad about that, at least I don’t have to share my problems with Joey Jie or Mariann mummy whereby they already have enough problems to deal with.

I would say that Deon, you’re such a good didi and I hope we bro n sis till the day I went to another world. LOL

Oh, and one more thing.

I dunno whether you will see this, but if you do, I just wanna let you know that would you mind just leave my life for whatever freaking sake? I have had enough of your brainless nonsense and I would be thankful if we leave each other alone for the time being. I don’t wish to have a conclusion of regretting knowing you, after all you did help me to get a job, know more friends in the workplace and even shared many philosophies about life. I may sound very bad at this point of time, but you sounded worse, just that you are those some people, who never notice that the nasty things they’ve said is rather hurting. You may thought that you’re old so means you’re mature and stuff, but at that point of time when you said those things in msn, I really wondered whether is that you or someone else but no point deceiving, it wad you and I just cannot believe you are just so sensitive and ignorant. I know I cannot out talk you as you will always say things like:

“I’m older” LALALA~~~ blahs, I seriously HATE IT I tell you.

Forget about it; just treat as giving the both of us some space alone for breathing...

tired... *yawns

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

I will try to leave the past behind me.

2008-02-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

Exams are all over at last weees~~ xD

but o well, work work work ahahahas xD

for the past few days, I was kinda tense up with many things man, but everything is alright now... what I wanted to know is known, just like a big rock off my shoulder *FREEE~!

now is just work and project xDDD

CAN'T WAIT TO GRADUATE!!!!

lalalalalas.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

no more pretending but at least I know how u feel. xD

2008-02-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

I'm stuck in between two person that I consider them as important person of my current life.

Is it that hard to let it just go and forgive and forget?

They just gave me a BIG problem that I can't seems to get rid of it. You guys may think that it doesn’t concern me but hell YES, it does concern me...

And I guess they find it no point to clear things out when it’s just a small misunderstanding.

I give up.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

people tend to make things difficult, why?

2008-02-06T19:55:00.000+08:00

Update...

Man, it’s been a rather busy week for me...

WORK, EXAMS, WORK... -.-"

The dinner my boss treats a few days ago is really damn nice man, I tell you, the chilli crab, fried chicken, fried sotong and all just taste so nice la! Come to think about it, I just can’t wait to bring my family down so I can eat again LOL~! xD

Exams on Monday was oh well, Okays? I just hope it’ll be fine... I dun ask for an A but at least a B...? hahas. *asking stupid question -.-

Life is still the same as always, only that work is kinda burning my energy faster than how it used to be due to Chinese New Year is coming. *shrugs have been very busy and man, you’re always very tired when you come home, and my gastric has worsen, ARGH~!!! *NOOOOOOO sob = ( Just dun feel hungry lately, I guess I’m too busy with work that’s why, imagine so many people flooding in the boutique. You can’t even see the outside, so over whelming! *sigh

I’m sorry for neglecting you lately, causing you to do stupid things just to attract my attention but it just dun work Okays. Understand me a little will you? Is not that I wanted to neglect you; it just seems too tired for me to keep giving in. I guess it’s just too hard for you to know about my life issues, the pressure I’m having but oh well, we do live in a different kinda environment and “stages” after all, but I dun blame you. =) but from tomorrow onwards, I shall be there and give in to you in as many ways as I can till the day you tell me you have to leave me.

Maybe I’m just a character that happens to appear in your story; maybe it’s just a few chapters LOL. BUT Even though it’s just a few chapters, I feel that I should do a good job to fulfil what I should be doing: guiding you =)

I guess I’m getting the feel of being older and older, gonna join the 20 category already. Man, I still wanna be a cute and innocent kid! *argh~ dun wanna be a wise woman, lao cha boh leh! *faint

Oh well, new year eve today, may I wish all of ya a:

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Ang bao many man hors! LOL

*Beeps

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

Guiding angel academy LOL

2008-01-29T16:10:00.000+08:00

Exams are coming, so I'll make it short (:

shall make a summary of last few days...

haven't been feeling very well, hate those lousy gems... *sweats

got a block nose which ended up to be a flu... *craps. But afterall, since I'm blogging today, it means I'm well again. *hahs. I've been thinking a lot quite lately and I notice I think more than what I'm suppose to think! Oh well, it doesnt make a big deal cause all probs are clear, in some way or another? (not so sure about that 0.0 )

Maybe because we're both busy, we didn't really have the time to talk i guess. Like what MooMoo had said:

“Since you’re happy with how it is like, why not continue it and dun ask for more”

So yup, I’m not gonna ask for more, I guess it may ended up ugly and I dun want it to be...

*Beeps

Oh yeah...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU LOVELY (:

Happy happy happy *muhahas xD

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land

(STOP)

you're my fairytale, just a fairytale.

2008-01-24T16:39:00.000+08:00

today is not a good day...in fact, it's a terrible day! *WTF

SCHOOL...

Last lesson of TVRP *NOOOOO assignment videos are showed...damn embarrass with my group’s video...*hahas. Went to eat at the nearby coffee shop after school, not bad for the chicken rice but after the lunch, the peeps going to cine and I can't go. Hate the feeling man, can't join in the fun... *sigh

me and my fav. lecturer KL (TVRP)

WORK...

reached my work place 5 mins earlier cause boss boss went overseas and had reminded us to help out as much as possible as female boss is alone to tend the shop in the morning. Everything is okays, just like a normal working day but hors...

is saying things like "I dunno" or "I'm tired" an excuse? O.o"

Somehow, this kuku in the brain claims that I'm making an excuse. So well, I just feel that I dun need to explain and dun bother to explain as I know it’ll not convince this fella. *whatever -.-" Some more got this lousy fella fax some lousy notes and rules that just pissed the shyt outta everyone... *noobster -.-"

That's when my day started to be spoiled.

HOME...

For some reasons, my mother just chooses to get on my nerves again. But anyway, it doesn't really affect me cause I know that it's not the first time *count me unlucky. She just seems unhappy with all things I did and I'll never understand why. I guess some things are best not to know...

Oh Well my day is spoiled...

The time for playing "Pretend" is over. Since you said that you're a nobody to me then I shall be a nobody to you as well. Fair and square...

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

don't lie to me, it makes you look like a debauch.

2008-01-22T16:51:00.000+08:00

alrite! haven been blogging since SUNDAY czuse I too happy over the lappy as well as WORK lahs *ahahas...

SUNDAY, 20 Jan 2008...

went to take my lappy man! *Weee

my sexy lappy *ahahas xD

and life is the same after that... hahas xD

MONDAY, 21 Jan 2008...

went to work and yeah! had so much fun with Wei Fen jie jie *hehes . PHOTOS!!!! *LOL

BIG MOUTH * HAHAHA!

wooo~

had a very happy day yo, sales was kinda good as well! *happy happy happy! xD

TODAY...

WORKING AGAIN...zZz but boss was very good, he went to Bukit Gombak to buy the CHICKEN CUTLET RICE for dinner! *yum yum!

the chicken cutlet rice! *nice nice

toufu and chicken feet! *yum xD

HOME...

AT LAST, FOR SO MANY DAYS OF DL MAPLE IN MY LAPPY...

IT'S ALL DONE! *WEEEEEE~~

had a very happy happy happy day!

thanks Ah Bang, u're my LUCKY STARRR!!! *HUGS

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

miss you! *lalala~

2008-01-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

BOOYAH~!

went shopping with karren today! *nice nice

bought my pants at last! *Weee

new pants xD

Have a wonderful lunch eating chicken rice there, the stall that my boss boss intro de! IS SO FREAKING NICE LA! *tasty tasty! After lunch, went to IMM SHOP SHOP! Ate McFlurry Ice-Cream! *sorry junior xD LOL. Then we went to DAISO, saw this lousy stupid-looking walrus. But oh well, we had a very good laugh over it. *ahahas. After getting over the lousy walrus, we went to FOX and I found the clothes that I wanna wear for my Chinese New Year! *WOOHOO~! After IMM, we went to Jurong Point SHOP SHOP again xD but on our way up to Toys 'R' Us, we saw this GUY near the opening selling soap and Kareen is like so high lah, keep saying:

"The guy cute anot?" *wth?!? o.O"

At the Toys 'R' Us, we saw this very freaking and idiotic machine. It claims that it can read your mind and well, it did works lah (that's why it's freaky and idiotic -_-"). Another toy we saw is this lousy looking bulldog where its mouth can moved and lousy enough, when I was busy pressing its teeth, it just went SNAP on my fingers that scares the shyt outta me man! So freaky lah! *zZz and I went to tell Kareen to try it and well, we’re both same type of person so yeah, it scares the shyt outta her as well. *noob -_-" but anyway, the bulldog did sort of entertained us lah *ahahas xD

HOME...

got home, was in a good mood. *hahas! went maple and spent time slacking with lovely. Had a lil chat on msn with Ah Bang.

And yeah, aku dak angry with ah bang lah, you sensitive seh, apa sia~ *zZz LOL!

Be less sensitive la Ah Bang, you're a guy you know! *boOo~ xD

And my instinct is so damn freaking me out lah please! I just seriously hope things won't go unpleasant man, dun make my life difficult... *sigh~

Okays, that's all for today. can't wait to get my lappy man!

*WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~

the stupid-looking warlus -_-"

the idiotic machine...

it's finger licking good? LOL

Like re-capping those childhood*LOL xD

*hugs lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

I can never understand you.

2008-01-19T15:41:00.000+08:00

It's not a good day today *sigh. I just seriously dunno what the fuck is wrong with me...

SCHOOL...

At last a burden from our shoulder was being taken off...

ALL ASSIGNMENTS ARE DONE AT LAST! *WEEEE~

after school, i found out that I didn't bring my wallet out!

*HOW BLUR WAS THAT!?!? *ARGH!

Went home, took wallet and headed back to Lot 1 to join the girls for lunch. We gag and crap a lot! *ahahas. Received a few smses but didn't really wanna reply it... and Mr.D, you'll never be able to get anything out from me, so dun try anymore. It makes you look like an idiot... -_-"

HOME...

Very bored, and I'm very sorry to lovely. I didn't mean to be so idiotic. It's just that, I couldn't get over what happen to me yesterday. *kill me please thank you.

But seriously, I'm tired of this. I just hate the feeling of having so many questions that I know I'll never get an answer out from it, and I swear I'm not gonna let it happen again... NEVER!

I just hate you acting like a noobster *you know what I mean.

I had enough. *beeps.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

I'm taking a BIG step backwards.

2008-01-17T16:55:00.000+08:00

That's it.

I understand fully what you mean and I'm not gonna ask anymore.

(no details provided)

But thanks for giving me such wonderful memories. I'll keep them deep in my heart and will never forget a single thing about it.

getting my new laptop in 2 days' time as well as a pants tomorrow *tasty xD

Okays, no more. *beep

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

why must you avoid when you say u won't?

2008-01-16T16:10:00.000+08:00

WEE~~~

went to Boat Quay to do my filming for my assignment. Everything went well and yup, had a lot of fun.

HOME...

Ate my supper, phone with my Alvin Ah Bang and Lovely and blah blah blahs...

alrite, tired le, but before I go...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN AH BANG!

*HUGS YOU TIGHT TIGHT!!!

my tasty ah bang! *ahahas!

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

I guess it's just a dream, WAKE UP!

2008-01-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

WHAT HAPPEN?!?!?! CAN ANYONE TELL ME??? o.O

SCHOOL...

Everything was fine in the morning *blah blah blahs. But after we're in school for around a few minutes, something WENT TOTALLY WRONG and I dun wanna talk about it since I'm not the one in the problem...

(no details provided)

Had my lunch and went to work. Was totally worn out when I reached there but thank God, new stocks came and there it goes… *busy busy busy, ahahas. That’s how I keep awake man, but after stocking checking and all the stuff, there isn’t anything much to do...

MONDAY = NOT MUCH CUSTOMER = BORED! *hate it la!

HOME...

Ate dinner, online , phone with Lovely and blah blah blahs… just seriously hope that tomorrow will be better, also:

NO MORE PROBLEMS PLEASE, THANKS YOU.

hais.

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

no more fucking up please.

2008-01-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

I seriously feel that I've been treated as an "Anger Venter-Machine" *no bad uh. -_-"

I just didn’t mean to miss the meeting of editing the video as well as giving you the impression that getting a new laptop is more important than to edit the video. But I really have no freaking idea that I was being “shot” for not turning up. *puzzled. But well, I think she’s just pissed off at that time. *nvm.

AFTERNOON…

I woke up around 12 noon, so therefore no morning for me *hahas. Had a light breakfast + lunch and off I go into mapling. As poor wizzers needed to rebuild, therefore i went to SG map in maple to earn some bucks. After my lil sister has finished her school work, off we go to Bukit Pangjang Plaza to take a look at the laptops.

Not a bad deal at all so yuppies! I’m getting this laptop! *AT LAST FOR HEAVEN SAKE (-_-“). Have lunch there and a lil shopping then home we go. Lovely did call me around 5 plus (if I’m not wrong), but somehow his irritating phone gets on my nerves. It just keeps ending halfway in the conversation and he had to keep calling back. *bOo! And the lousy rain drenches my feet zZz. @#$%^%& *Blah Blah Blahs…

HOME…

Reached home and was super excited as my wizzers is getting married with qwertyArchEx! *LOVELY~! Was a lil blur about the wedding but overall, it went just well and no troubles at all *nice nice xD. As it’s a Monday tomorrow, so early rest for the both us but yeahs, I’m very happy that lovely is very satisfy and happy with our characters’ wedding.

“And lovely, I won’t regret for today, 8pm sharp in the chapel that I said “I do.” Also, for the vow, I may worried I can’t fulfill it but at least I try okays? ahahahs”

So that’s another day past for me, as well as a day I know lovely more.

MARRIED

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

13.01.08 at 8pm <3

2008-01-12T16:20:00.001+08:00

I seriously need a rest man… totally worn out.

*faints But at last we’ve finish our TVRP part B video! *WEEE~

stress ><

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

missing you.

2008-01-11T16:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED SISTER! *Hugs

20 years old le, 1 more yr to R-21! *wahahas xD

Hahas...had so much fun joining my sister’s friends to surprise my sister at home! *grins

Ate chocolate banana cake, prata and Tim Tam! *Nice nice! All of us was there to countdown for her hehes…I’m a so nice sister man *praises myself. That’s a truth ok! HAHAS.

Also, everyday went rather well today so it’s like so nice! *weeee~

SCHOOL...

Woke up a lil late but wasn’t too late for lesson. TVRP ROCKS MY SOCKS! llolx. Even though was kinda lost in today’s lesson, all the technical stuff just simply can’t go into my still-in-dream land brain, but was gald to say my brain was back on track after the break, thanks to tasty prawn soup but not noodlest. *muhahas x)

AFTER SCHOOL ...

Went to Bukit Pangjang Plaza with MooMoo to look for laptops and yeah yeah! Found one that I wanted so yupps! VAIO Laptop here I come!!! *GRINS! Bought honey-gazed chicken wings and heaven man, it just taste super duper delicious! Very satisfy with it man.*booya~ xD

HOME...

Lovely call me and we just gag a lil cus he just ended school. But it was rather weird of him to tell me to call him for no reason. Later on I was known that he just wanted to try whether his kuku phone got any free incoming or not, lousy fella. *BoOo. I was on the net browsing other blogskins when my tired eyes and brain brought me to dream land for around 40 mins or so. *Naps xD. Lovely did tell me to call him but I’ve forgot about it. Sorry for that lovely, made you waited for me but anyway, you dozes off as well so it doesn’t make any difference la please. *dots

OH YAH! Just Remember...

The Follow-up

After all, he did call me when I smsed him that I’m going to sleep around 2 plus in the morning. He explained that he wasn’t angry and blah blahs. He was sorry for making me worried and swears that there will not be a second time but if there is a second time, it’ll be Hallelujah to you okays lovely? *evil grins. You know me la, I dun have the heart to do that man, LOL.

So everything was okay again hahs xD I’ll be upset if he still can’t get over the issues man. Somemore he is having something like rashes but its call ‘hives’ or whatever, which has made me worried even more as I’ve no idea how long will it takes to heal man. It’s like so poor thing you know, awww… *hugs you tightly lovely <3

Just hope it’ll be all cured in no time and I need to be less sensitive man, hahas.

*yawns, eyes are shutting down llolx.

Tired already, I shall stop here for today but once again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THOSE WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS TODAY AS WELL!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL *SMILES xD

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

kissing you good night.

2008-01-10T15:56:00.000+08:00

ELLO… xD

I’ve picked up blogging again people! *waves
kinda pathetic making people think that I've gone MIA. didn’t really wanna be away but its just that there's too many things to do last year so yeah, no time to blog and also I'm LAZY to blog. hahas.

now I'm back to blogging again so folks dun say that I dun let you all know about my life...but come on, how much can you find out through reading my blog? I may not type every single thing out you know, I’m a prisoner on the loose alright! LOL

Okays…

I’ve been having an awesome year of cramming my brain with many “tasty” assignments that is gonna be due by next week. pathetic eh? But that’s a must do or else is a R.I.P to minfang… *mourns

But no matter what, these assignments are just a room in my brain that’s gonna be all cleared by next week…

SCHOOL…

Was having a rather peaceful day. Being late for lesson *ahahas, nice breakfast, crapping together with moomoo and nutty hazel was really the best time to start off your ‘not enough sleep’ day. But sadly to say, when we’re gonna get our tasty breakfast (laksa laksa), this freaking, idiotic, fat CAT just appeared and was staying under the table not MOVING! *argh

Had no choice but to just keep starting at this fatty cat and prays hard t goes away and luckily enough, the cat went away after a few mins of mr ck’s arrival. llolx. All of us girls actually agreed that the cat must’ve sense that he got many pet dogs so there it goes, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE FAT CAT! llolx..

Lesson was awesome as ms Grace, who tot she was the ‘princess’ padham called was being sorta scolded…

“Grace, do you know sometimes you are just asking really STUPID questions?”

ahahas! The whole class was like siok la! *grins But seriously man, she really do ask really damn freaking stupid questions that is like implying people to ‘notice me please’ that kinda thing. Fuck big times for her llolx! *sorry but its true! hahahas.

AFTER SCHOOL…

Christina went to meet her boyfriend so there left me, nutty hazel and gong kareen and since we’re kinda hungry and there’s time to spare, we went to lot 1's Pastamania and hit the spaghetti llolx. Met my “long-lost” senior in there and was kinda werid la, maybe she changed a lot that’s why. *hmmm but I do had damn lotsa fun taking pics as the atmosphere is so damn warm. *booya! Crap abit more, finish the food and off we all split up to where we should belong...

food!

featuring gong kareen! llolx

rocker? llolx \m/

thinking of?

acting cute >< me -_-"

HOME…

The usual. *bloops!

On the com and *snap!

***horrified

(no details provided)

Was actually very very, super duper LUCKY to have my lovely one always being there for me. *hugs to lovely!

But somehow, things went a lil stupid and YES, I do blame my sensitive feelings and there goes a lil lousy squabble. *blahs

Lovely claims he’s ok but my instinct is telling me that is a NO that he’s ok. I’m just so sorry for being sensitive but hello, it’s a normal reaction one will react when such never-thought-of things jus happens!!!! *screams

*blahs blahs blahs...

I just hope tomorrow will be better. But something I did that I would say is an achievement is that I did kinda have a deal with hazel about not picking up his call so yeah, there goes the deal fulfilled! LOL. But our sensitiveness over something (small?) had just made me think that I know something else. (no details provided thank you) *bOo

I notice this is the longest post I've ever posted in my blog! *WoOTs
But sigh, I'm truly sorry for my poor wizzers to had encouter such tragedy *crys

*eyes closing…

alright, a follow up about my lovely shall be done tomorrow. *beeps

*hugs Lumpy and goes to dream land.

(STOP)

I'm sorry, I miss you.